how many?

so how many times must you answer the same question before you can change the answer. for instance if you tell someone they can have something. and then they ask if they can have it. you say yes. then they ask again. not more than 10 minutes later. again you say yes. when they ask again, is it permissible at that point to say "no, no you may not have it". how many times must you answer the same question before you can change your answer?

alter ego

so I just realized who my cartoon alter ego is....the happy bunny. You know the little bunny that says things like "You stink" "I hate everything" "Hi Loser"

from the website (http://www.jimbenton.com/):

Does It's Happy Bunny dislike anybody in particular??

Of course not.

It's Happy Bunny dislikes everybody

my favorites

just because you don't like them, doesn't mean that you need to criticize my choices. I don't force you to listen to them or watch them. You have the ablitly to walk out. Everytime you make those comments, it's like you are demeaning my worth. How can you expect me to like you, or be around you if all you do is make me feel bad about myself. Well, you would if your opinion matter to me.

Do you ever think before you speak?

The movies

A friend of mine has decided to attempt to write a screen play. Which is really kind of stupid. She totally sucks at writing dialoge (I've read some of her previous attempts at writing), which does not bode well for any screenplay, as most of a script is dialoge. But I guess one should not crush another's dreams.

well, best of luck to you on your movie adventures.

number one friend

I don't know why
it matters to me
that I'm your
number one friend
I don't know why
it matters to me
that my words
meant something to you
I don't know why
it matters so much
that you like me
I know you love me
I know that we will
always
have a special connection
but it does matter
so thanks
for making me
your number one friend

rock salt

do you ever just have one of those days when life is going okay and you feel you should be happy, but you just don't. you just feel old and alone. Like everyone else has found some one and you never will, partially because in order to find someone you have to expend some energy looking, and you just don't care enough to do that. like the thought of having to be in a relationship (where you'll more than likely end up with a broken heart - again) is just more than you can deal with. but the thought of being alone for forever doesn't seem appealing either. like everyone else is going on ward and up ward with their life and you are just stagnant, not going anyway. stuck in a rut so deep that even if you could pull together the energy to try and climb out it would take you days, weeks, months, even years to make it to the top. have you ever felt like that? watching all these little kids whose diapers you used to change go off to college. off to do things with their life, make the world a better place, yet all you seem to be able to do is make things worse for those around you. like nothing you do is ever right. have you ever felt like that?

i know, it's not right to compare oneself to other people. know one ever knows what demons someone else is dealing with. and time does pass. life moves on. people grow up. i know all that. and i know my feelings are rational. but then when are feelings ever rational? aren't feelings and emotion the exact opposite of rational? or maybe I'm just the exact opposite of rational. maybe I'm just not that strong of a person. maybe i should just be a better person than I am.

interesting

it was an interesting day.
*met up with someone I haven't seen since the divorce
*found out about yet another divorce in the family
*had a call about someone looking for their Cooties

on a lighter note

read some gossip today about how Patrick Swayze could not be talked into doing a Dirty Dancing sequel. Apparently the script was so bad that he just couldn't do it. Which leads me to question whether or not he read the script to Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights.

Yes, I actually paid money to see Havana Nights. It was a girls night out. We thought we'd give it a try. Mr. Swayze had a cameo in this movie. Baically the movie was the same as the first Dirty Dancing, only different setting (Havana, Cuba), and an issue of race and class more than just class standing (rich vs. poor). The movie, in my and my friends opinions, was no where near the caliber of the first one.

big fat meanie

someone told me my last blog was a little "harsh" in places. so I apoligize if anyone finds it offensive. but frankly certain things annoy me because I don't feel someone should have to say them to another person. but such is life in the big city I suppose.

for "Kelso/JS"

Just some reminders about the house...

1. You are not the only person living in the house. There are other people who live there too. This might be a good time to discuss public and private spaces. Public spaces are those used by EVERYONE in the house, ie, the living room, the dining room, the kitchen. Private spaces are those used by only one person, ie the bedrooms.

2. YOUR bedroom - This is your own space. What you do in this space is your business. The only time we will enter this area is when we need to access the storage space that is only accessible by going through your space.

3. OUR bedrooms - please refrain from going in our bedrooms. This is our own personal space. There is nothing from there that you need. STAY OUT!

4. The entry way - this is a public area. Anyone coming, or leaving, the house must go through this area
the most important thing to remember: LOCK THE DOOR!!!!!!!!! This is for both when you leave, and when you come in. You may be thinking "well, I'm going to be sitting on the sofa, I'll be able to see anyone who comes in" and yes, that may be true, but what about when you leave the living room??
the above rule (LOCK THE DOOR!) actually applies to ALL the doors in the house. Also, if you are not going to bother locking the door, please make sure that the door is actually shut all the way!
overall, good rule to go by: if you unlocked and opened a door, close it and lock it! Really, it's not all that difficult.

5. The living room - this is a communal space. Please be aware that this is not your own private domain.
When sitting on the sofa, it might be nice if you didn't sit in the exact center. This only leaves the chair as an open seating.
Do not leave glasses with liquid in them on the coffee table when you leave. As you should be aware (as they have done it when you have been in the room) the cats will try and drink out of the glass. If no human is around to stop them, they will knock the glass over, spilling whatever may have been in the glass at the time.
When leaving the house or not planning on returning to the living room anytime soon, please turn off the TV if you were the only one in the room. (obviously if someone is sitting there watching TV, you should not turn it off on them.)
When you are done using the computer 1) close any programs that you do not want anyone to have access to. I will not go out of my way to look through your private stuff, but if you leave your bank account information up on the computer, I can't help but take a look. Seriously, just close out of all programs before leaving the computer, or at least minimize the screens. 2) close the laptop. Really, not that difficult. Just one little hand motion will take the laptop from being open to being closed. Why does it matter you may ask, well, maybe it doesn't, but with the cats forever walking around, it might be nice if they weren't walking over all the keys as they are wont to do on occasion. Also, it makes it easier for the next person to use it. 3) when using the desktop computer, log out. You had to log in to use it, log out when you're done. The rest of us do it, I'm sure you can too.
you can pick up the mail. It's truly not hard to spot. It comes in through the slot on the bottom of the door and lays on the floor in pile between the door and stairs. Oddly enough, the only way it makes it way from the floor to the dining room table (or any other surface besides the floor where it lays) is if some physically picks it up and moves it. You seem to be under the delusion that fairies come by and do things around the house. This is not true. Fairies do not exist in the house. Trust me on this.
If you "borrow" someone's movie, please do not leave it in the dvd player. Especially if this person does not live here and is just visiting. Oddly enough they may not check that someone has gone through their stuff, took out the DVD and left in the DVD player. This means that someone must mail them back the movie. Also, just because someone has rented a movie and left it by the TV, this does not necessarily mean that you are free to watch it. A nice step might be to say "hey, do you mind if I watch these movies that you spent your money to check out?"
If you use the phone, hang it back up. If the phone is not working the next time you want to use it, because you forgot to hang it back up, this does not give you the right to go into someone else's room and take their phone. If perchance you do, hang that phone back up. Remember if you don't hang the phones up, they can't recharge and then no one can use them!!

6. The dining room - this is a public space.
please take your mail occasionally, and put in your room. Also, please do not leave the garbage from any packages you may receive in the room. Please throw away or recycle as appropriate.

7. The kitchen - THIS IS A PUBLIC SPACE!!! (I put this in caps, because you seem to have a hard time with this.) Multiple people use this space EVERYDAY! Yes, everyday. Multiple times a day in fact. So if you leave a mess, chances are that someone will need to use that space BEFORE 24 hours has passed.
when done cooking, please clean up after yourself. This includes: wiping off any mess on the stove top (grease splatters); wiping off any mess on the couter top, this includes throwing away any boxes or plastic wrap, wiping up any crumbs, wiping up any drips or drops; putting dirty dishes in the sink or dishwasher; empty out the strainer in the sink when it becomes so filled with food that water no longer passes through it (again, fairies do not exist in the house, it has to be done by an actual human) Also, when you are done cooking, please remember to turn off the stove.
the dishwasher - when putting dirty dishes in the dishwasher step 1 - CHECK THAT THE DISHES IN THE DISHWASHER ARE DIRTY!!! Strangely enough, it's a little irritating to others if you put dirty dishes on top of the dishes they just cleaned. If you are unsure if the dishes are clean or dirty (if their are food particles on the dishes, they are probably dirty. If not, good chance they are clean.) ASK someone!
beer does not magically appear in the fridge. Coke does not magically appear in the fridge. In fact nothing in the fridge magically appears. It all costs money! If, in the words of the Little Red Hen, you didn't help make the bread, you aren't going to help eat the bread. (and FYI, we see your "veiled" attempts at begging for food. We just don't care.)

8. The laundry room - again public space. Even though it is right next to your private space, it is still considered public space.
When your laundry is done, please remove it from the washer and dryer. Chances are someone is going to want to use them. The washer and dryer are not extra storage for you.
If you are going to use the communal detergent, it might be nice if you contributed. Either go buy some and add it to the stash, or pony up some funds for those who do purchase it. (in fact this works for ANY and ALL communal use products: dishwasher detergent, toilet paper, paper towels...)

9. The pets - not necessarily public space, but actually, this was supposed to be your private domain, but you slacked off. Oddly enough, I know this may come as a shock to you, but animals need to be fed EVERYDAY! And they need to have water EVERYDAY! Like people, without food or water, they will die.
Feeding the cats. How do you know if the cats need to be fed? Step 1, assess whether or not they have been fed today. Did you feed them? No, well, might be a good sign that they need to be fed then. Is their bowl of food empty? Yes, well, again, might be a good sign that they need to be fed. Is their water bowl empty? Yes, well, you might want to fill it up then. See, that wasn't too difficult.
But, I have to go check the food and water bowl then everyday. Yes you do. I realize that sometimes it is a pain to have to go all the way down to the basement to check on it, but, it needs to be done.
The litter box needs to be cleaned twice a week. How do you know if it's time to clean it? Well, one way would be to check and see, is it a litter box cleaning day? Yes, then you may want to take care of that. Does the litter box smell? Yes, then hey, you might want to change it. Can you smell the litter box upstairs? Yes, then you might have missed a day. [don't worry, we have since taken over the pets needs and we will be taking the discounted rent for that.]

10. The great outdoors - strange as it seems, this is a public space.
the garbage - kind of an indoor/outdoor thing. The garbage must be taken from inside the house, and put into the large garbage cans outside. Garbage and recycle are collected once a week. This happens EVERY week. 52 weeks a year. Yep, 52 of 'em. Generally, we try to keep the trash to one can if at all possible. Also, the trash can and the recycle bin must be taken to the curb. Again, no fairies in the area. After the trash and recycle have been picked up, the garbage can and recycle bin must be brought back up to the house. Again, this happens every week. Same day every week.
the lawn does not mow itself. I know you know this because you know we mow the lawn. Also weeding needs to be done. This does not happen every week, but does occur once or twice a month. You can assist with this. Again, that was part of your rent agreement. Helping out with the yard work.
the table and chairs - please do not leave your garbage out there. Either throw it in the trash cans 2 feet away, or bring it back into the house throw away. And the pile of shirts you have left sitting out there for months...again, goes back to, do not leave your garbage out there.

11. The car
while permission was granted for the house to have the ability of occasional use of the vehicle, this does not mean that it can become your own. And if you do choose to borrow it, please do not come home without it. If you cannot afford to park it, then it might be best if you found some other way to get to work.

12. Etiquette
when guests are in residence, DO NOT go in their room. If you do, take your clothes with you!!!! Do not leave your dirty clothes on someone else's bed. That's just wrong on so many levels.
do not borrow other peoples stuff with out asking. It's rude. And doesn't really make people like you.
do not continue to talk to people when it's quite apparent they don't want to talk to you.
do not talk during peoples television shows. Especially to ask about what happened last time. First of all, the first 5-10 minutes is a recap of the last show. Second, if you're that interested, watch every show! Or wait until a commercial break and then ask. It's just irritating.

i blame these puddles on the rain

how do you tell someone that what is bother you is their mere presence. and that their continuous attempts at conversation are not improving that situation at all.

oh ha ha ha

so, checked my horoscope this afternoon when I was trying to waste some time at work. thought it was a little....well....apropriate for the day.

Overview:
An old problem keeps hanging around you like a stubborn stain. It's time to treat it like you would a laundry problem: Get a stain remover and let it soak for a while, then scrub, wash, rinse and repeat if necessary.

Commercial

So, I don't really care for those Tide On The Go commercials with Kelly Ripa. I find them annoying. But after today, I love Tide On The Go!

There was a potluck breakfast at work today. Someone brought in some fruit salad (which was very tasty by the way). Well, towards the end of my meal, I attempted to pick up a blueberry with my fork by "stabbing" it. Apparently it did not care for this method and squirted blueberry juice all over the nice white shirt I borrowed from my sister this morning. One coworker said that it blended in nicely with the design (blue flowers embrodered along the sides of the v-neck). Unfortunately today was a day that I was going to a meeting for work. Not really a day that I need blueberry juice all down the front of my shirt. Well another coworker mentioned she had the Tide To Go pen (or whatever it is called). So I tried it out. It worked! I can still kind of tell where the stain was, but I know where to look. I was very impressed with this product and would recommend it to anyone.

"...I blame these puddles on the rain..."

(title is a quote from PaperBag by Anna Nalik)

so, I know I need to keep a postive attitude, but it's hard. I just feel like most people have a better life than me. I know that isn't necissarily true, but...

I was looking at a webpage of an old college friend, and can't help but compare my life. I know I shouldn't, but, yet I do.

Then today I was on this page for my high school class. The 10 year reunion was a couple of weeks ago. I didn't go, but have read some of what people are up to. It seems like everyone is married with kids. Which I'm sure isn't true, but I think the married with kids crowd is the majority. And other people seem to be doing these great things, going to foreign countries, making the world a better place.

I know some kids that just graduated high school, are getting ready to go off to college and do great things. I guess at times I just feel like I've kind of wasted the last 10 years of my life. In some respects I wish I could redo it. I know I know, there are no redo's in life. We must learn from our mistakes and just move forward. I KNOW that. I tell people that.

Other times I wouldn't trade my experiences or friends for anything in the world.