Interesting...

Did you know that Maryland has a state cat? It's the calico. They also have a state horse, the thoroughbred.

Who comes up with these things? Does somebody actually get paid for this? If so, I want that job.

Bestest Friend in the World

Today started out not so great. Actually it kind of started last night. I woke up at some point last night, and was a little disoriented. Couldn't figure out where I was at first. I figured it out and went back to sleep. Then I had a strange creepy dream. It was really creepy. I was at a reunion or something. This person came up to me and their face was covered in sores or something. There were a couple of different but the entire face was covered. The sores formed a clown face. And the eyes were not right either. Thinking about it now still creeps me out.

Needless to say I wasn't in the best of moods when I got up. I felt like I hadn't slept at all. So I went off to work. A couple of my co-workers have been emailing back and forth for the past couple of days. Well, my officemate shared one of the emails with my other officemate and myself today. This other person is in our department, and basically told my officemate that I need to "step it up" at work. Apparently she doesn't think I am doing as much as I could. Which really is a little funny. She apparently thinks I should be able to these 2 'tasks'. It's funny because I'm doing the 1 task I'm doing because she couldn't do both of them.

We've been doing some job analysis at work. A few weeks ago we recorded how much time we spent on the phone every day. In the 10 days that were used for date she had about 50 phone calls, for a total of 200+ minutes. I had I think close to 200 phone calls and I know my total was 500 and some odd minutes. And when she isn't able to do everything she is supposed to be doing, I have to do it. So, needless to say I was really torqued off.

This person also managed to tick off the other officemate in the same email. Actually the three people in my room (that includes me) were all unhappy with that email. I haven't been overly happy at work for...well, about a year now to be perfectly honest. This really didn't not want to make me stay. Was able to keep it to myself...well, I shared with my officemates, but we treated the writer the same as we normally do.

Anyway, I was not in a good mood this afternoon. Sometime after lunch today the receptionist called me and asked if I could come up front. I was like "oh crap". Figured I had done something wrong, and I really wasn't in the mood for it. I got up front and it turned out that I had received flowers! I kind of knew that they were coming, but hadn't expected them today.

A couple of days ago, my friend emailed and asked for my work address. But it was still nice to recieve some beautiful roses and vase. It was my first "Birth and Valentines day" present of the year. I was so much happier walking back to my office with flowers. :) It really made my day. I had a little bounce to my step.

I have the bestest friend in the world.

Sent an email to family and friends this evening. Letting them know of my impending move to the east. (I had a feeling it would soon be spreading around.)

I got a response from one of my cousins that brought a smile to my face. After the regular "good luck" stuff, he incluced this note:

"BTW, thanks for calling your sisters down in [yonder - my word not his] when I was going down there a couple months ago - I don't know what you said, but after I couldn't get ahold of them on my own for awhile, I heard back from them about twenty minutes after talking to you. ;-)"

My response: "After being an older sister for 20 years, I've learned how to put the fear of God into my siblings" I think it's more that they want to stop the nagging. I'm good at that. All my great talents are not very marketable ones.

let your dreams be your guide

"let your dreams be your guide" This was the theme of my horoscope this morning. Have to say that it's a little scary. My dreams of late have been a bit...bizzare.

For instance, last night, I dreamed I was driving in some town. I think I was supposed to be meeting someone. I drove around this block like 5 or 6 times trying to find a parking space. Finally found one. So then I'm in this restaurant, and I keep cleaning the tables. Any empty table I spray with cleaner and wipe down. Not because this is my job. I don't work there. So I finally decide to leave there and I go back to my car, which is parked on a hill. The car in front of me, both of us facing downhill, is parked really really close. So I get in the car, keep my foot attached to the brake as I turn on the car and attempt to switch it in to reverse. Well, my car still taps the one in front of me. Apparently this car did not have any brakes or anything because my car barely touched it, and it starts rolling down the hill. Bye Bye car. So then I'm driving around trying to get to where I need to be (where that is, I have no idea). There are all these one way streets, then I'm driving past this church which I think I had driven past on my way into town. And then I stop at this sculpture thing. It's a whole bunch of binoclars lined up in two rows. The binoculars were to scale, but something like 6 or 7 feet tall. I got my camera and was going to take a picuture, but when I looked through the view finder, there were people in my way, people who hadn't been there 5 seconds before. They were looking at the caboose at the end of this long line of binoculars. Then I woke up, trying to figure out why there was a caboose.

So, what is this dream trying to tell me? I suppose the horoscope could have been talking about the larger "life" dreams. Which I really don't have any at the moment.

2/7/06

So, I was watching 7th Heaven last night. (I don't normally watch the show, and probably won't watch it again anytime soon, because it has just become way too hokey.) Ruthie was dealing with some...depression...about a boy. She'd be doing okay, then someone would make a comment about afore mentioned boy, and she'd be back to being super depressed.

It just seemed kind of fitting as that is kind of where I am in life. Only mine isn't boy related. Mine's life related. I'll be doing okay. Not great, but able to make it through the day without thinking that my life is completely worthless. Then something happens, and I'm back to question my existence.

I've decided to move...well, along with some "guidence" from others. Everyday I question whether or not my moving is the right move. Whether my existence means something. This past weekend, I called 5 people. Only 1 answered the phone. None of the rest called me back. A couple other things happened that just make me wonder...well, it just makes me wonder.