Reflections :(
2005 was not one of my better years. On one of my various weekend trips in the past month, my mom and I were discussing 2005. We both felt that November was a particularly icky month. Both of us had some $$$ issues, we got news of the latest divorce in the family (the 4th this year - this one the closest to home - no it's not my parents, don't think I'd handle that well at all), got new of the latest pregnancy in the family. I know, I know, you're thinking, babies are good things...in theory yes, but it helps if the person having the baby has the....well, it's best if the person is capable of dealing with all the aspects of having children (ie, putting the child's needs a head of your own, etc.).
News from 2005 that should be 'good' news, but, while being happy for the individuals, also makes me feel sad and alone....Had a cousin get married this past summer. Happy for her, but considering she's several years younger than me, made me question whether or not I'd always be alone. One of my best friends got married this fall. Good times, and luckily I wasn't the only single gal there. I actually was dealing well with the fact that I could possibly be single the rest of my life. Maybe that's just the way things are supposed to be. Then yesterday came. Now this story has much more impact if you actually know my brother. Good kid, my brother. Still think he ended up in the wrong family somehow, but then as I am an only child raised by wolves, and my sister was adopted from the gypsies, who am I to say. So my 'baby' brother called me yesterday. This alone is quite an event. I returned his call and we chatted about our plans for Saturday (my parents and I headed to the university for his choral concert), then he gave e the news. My baby brother has a girlfriend. Nice girl. I met her once. And he asked her. Mom didn't like that news much. Means that he REALLY likes her. (my mom would prefer that all of her children complete their degrees before getting married.) I told my cousin about his girlfriend last night. Her jaw dropped. Her reaction was quite hilarious actually. Also I found out last night that apparently one of my other sisters has a beau. Still need to contact her on the details.
So this leaves me the lone singleton in the family. Which being the second oldest of seven is...well, whatever it is. I guess if I were to be perfectly technical, one sister is on her way to single status, but I'm choosing not to think about that at the moment. Don't know that I have the emotional reserves to deal with that situation quite yet. I think, if I were an animal, I'd have to be an ostrich.
Then there is the whole job situation, which, like many of my problems, I just try to not think about. If I don't think about it, I don't cry.
Also this year, my aunt was diagnosised with cancer. I think it was colon cancer. She underwent surgery, and is now going through chemo. Saw her over Thanksgiving weekend. She appears to be doing well. 6 more treatments and another surgery, but she has a positive attitude. Wish I could be more like her.
Don't remember if this was the end of last year (it would have been after October) or the beginning of this year, but my grandmother's house in Alabama burnt down. Luckily she was not in the house, no one was, and she has relatives down there that she was able to move in with.
There were a couple of other things that helped to make this year not so good, but I think it would be too difficult to describe.
Overall, 2005 was not the best of years. Hopefully 2006 will be better.
News from 2005 that should be 'good' news, but, while being happy for the individuals, also makes me feel sad and alone....Had a cousin get married this past summer. Happy for her, but considering she's several years younger than me, made me question whether or not I'd always be alone. One of my best friends got married this fall. Good times, and luckily I wasn't the only single gal there. I actually was dealing well with the fact that I could possibly be single the rest of my life. Maybe that's just the way things are supposed to be. Then yesterday came. Now this story has much more impact if you actually know my brother. Good kid, my brother. Still think he ended up in the wrong family somehow, but then as I am an only child raised by wolves, and my sister was adopted from the gypsies, who am I to say. So my 'baby' brother called me yesterday. This alone is quite an event. I returned his call and we chatted about our plans for Saturday (my parents and I headed to the university for his choral concert), then he gave e the news. My baby brother has a girlfriend. Nice girl. I met her once. And he asked her. Mom didn't like that news much. Means that he REALLY likes her. (my mom would prefer that all of her children complete their degrees before getting married.) I told my cousin about his girlfriend last night. Her jaw dropped. Her reaction was quite hilarious actually. Also I found out last night that apparently one of my other sisters has a beau. Still need to contact her on the details.
So this leaves me the lone singleton in the family. Which being the second oldest of seven is...well, whatever it is. I guess if I were to be perfectly technical, one sister is on her way to single status, but I'm choosing not to think about that at the moment. Don't know that I have the emotional reserves to deal with that situation quite yet. I think, if I were an animal, I'd have to be an ostrich.
Then there is the whole job situation, which, like many of my problems, I just try to not think about. If I don't think about it, I don't cry.
Also this year, my aunt was diagnosised with cancer. I think it was colon cancer. She underwent surgery, and is now going through chemo. Saw her over Thanksgiving weekend. She appears to be doing well. 6 more treatments and another surgery, but she has a positive attitude. Wish I could be more like her.
Don't remember if this was the end of last year (it would have been after October) or the beginning of this year, but my grandmother's house in Alabama burnt down. Luckily she was not in the house, no one was, and she has relatives down there that she was able to move in with.
There were a couple of other things that helped to make this year not so good, but I think it would be too difficult to describe.
Overall, 2005 was not the best of years. Hopefully 2006 will be better.
posted by Tallulah Jones | 8:13 AM
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