Job Searching...Stinks
So I had an interview last week for a company in a town about an hour away from where I live. The interview, in my opinon, did not go well. I hope the gentlemen find what they are looking for, but I have a feeling it won't be me.
On my drive home I thought about whether or not I'd have the confidence needed to do the job, if, on the way off chance, it was ever offered. Lately my confidence, which has always been somewhat lacking, is practically non-existant.
I also thought about whether I'd ever find a job that I enjoyed. Which lead me to think about the jobs I held in college. I obtained my masters and bachelor's degrees from the same institution, with a 2 year...adventure...in between. While on my pursuite for higher education, I worked in the same office. They were excited to have me back when I returned to Grad School. while at times I found my job there some what monoton0us, that's one of the few places where I really felt I fit in. I started contemplating trying to find a job in that area.
Well, that was Wednesday. On Thursday I got an email from my former boss, informing me of a full time postion in the department. It would not be for either of the people I formerly worked for, but for someone working down the hall.
Well, this lead to some serious thinking. First, was I looking at my past with rose-colored glasses? Could I really move back there and find some happiness? Or was I just dreaming. Second, working for my new boss, would I feel compelled to help my old boss when she asked? Now this might not seem like that big of a deal, but if it would pull me away from my new job, that would be bad. and it would irritate the new boss. And I can totally see my old boss doing that. And the new boss would be a bear to work for if that happened.
I just have no clear feeling on what I should do. It might end up being a moot point if I can't take the required exam. Or if I don't pass the exam. I just don't want to end up taking a job for the wrong reasons...again. And end up in a job I hate...again. Who knows, maybe it's just me. Maybe I'll never be happy with work at all.
On my drive home I thought about whether or not I'd have the confidence needed to do the job, if, on the way off chance, it was ever offered. Lately my confidence, which has always been somewhat lacking, is practically non-existant.
I also thought about whether I'd ever find a job that I enjoyed. Which lead me to think about the jobs I held in college. I obtained my masters and bachelor's degrees from the same institution, with a 2 year...adventure...in between. While on my pursuite for higher education, I worked in the same office. They were excited to have me back when I returned to Grad School. while at times I found my job there some what monoton0us, that's one of the few places where I really felt I fit in. I started contemplating trying to find a job in that area.
Well, that was Wednesday. On Thursday I got an email from my former boss, informing me of a full time postion in the department. It would not be for either of the people I formerly worked for, but for someone working down the hall.
Well, this lead to some serious thinking. First, was I looking at my past with rose-colored glasses? Could I really move back there and find some happiness? Or was I just dreaming. Second, working for my new boss, would I feel compelled to help my old boss when she asked? Now this might not seem like that big of a deal, but if it would pull me away from my new job, that would be bad. and it would irritate the new boss. And I can totally see my old boss doing that. And the new boss would be a bear to work for if that happened.
I just have no clear feeling on what I should do. It might end up being a moot point if I can't take the required exam. Or if I don't pass the exam. I just don't want to end up taking a job for the wrong reasons...again. And end up in a job I hate...again. Who knows, maybe it's just me. Maybe I'll never be happy with work at all.
posted by Tallulah Jones | 12:04 PM
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